An important teacher of mine once told me in my training as a metaphysician that I needed courage to overcome some areas of my life and I never knew what he meant. Today I found out.
You see, courage we often think of as determination, strength, will and that lion quality. Well, I have plenty of that, I always have and in my training and work I found a way to express that without doing damage. Truthfully, courage comes from the heart it comes from us being able to express ourselves authentically, such as to be silly when we want to be silly, to cry when we feel like crying, to act according to our own hearts desires without fear of judgment, to not judge our own actions or thoughts even when we don't like them or feel aligned with them for they are what they are. We can learn from them.
It takes a lot of courage when presented with a challenge or difficulty or miscommunication not to react emotionally with anger. It takes courage to be compassionate and kind in the face of ugliness. It takes courage when we feel like we don't fit in. It takes courage to say we don't like something. True courage really requires us to be in our God self connected to your higher self and to stay there regardless of what is greeting us. Without thought....to just be. No masks, no faking, no fear.
This morning before I went to Yoga I had an opportunity to put that into practice in a very practical way, after all isn't this how we truly learn in the lives that we live. I was able to stay in my heart although there was a small part of me that felt a twinge of anger and a lion like response. But I stopped, I listened to my higher self and I moved forward and the issue resolved itself in a much more agreeable manner.
Then I go to class and the message is the same and along came the healing of the soul and heart. I couldn't have asked for a better teacher or teaching this morning. As I lay there in my svasana I saw layers of my heart being pealed away, those layers have been protection for me from when I was very small and up until this day. You see we put up shields many times when we feel unloved, threatened, fearful, humiliated, angry or sad. And we change because of it. We lose the connection to our very own essence.
Life is not meant to harden us, it's purpose is to teach us love. Please don't harden your heart anymore.
As I write this the tears are rolling as I continue to release, it is taking courage to be in humility and write this. After all, I'm known as a healer, a teacher, a warrior and yet I am not so brave sometimes and aren't I supposed to be? No, that is another illusion of protection, for me and maybe for you. I write this piece for us all and from my brave heart to your brave heart I hope it touches a deep space within you.